Monday and Tuesday were the hardest days for me. I didn’t think it was possible to feel so much heartache and cry so many tears!
Monday morning Jake came over bright and early and took me to breakfast at Wayside. Then we went shopping for all of the last little things with Jake’s mom. Monday was not to bad but Monday evening was harder just because I knew it was the last night I got to be with Jake for two years. The amazing sunset helped though!
Jake knows just how to make me smile even when I feel so sad!
He also got all packed on Monday night. Well his mom and I packed it haha Jake sat in the chair and just said I don’t care, sure, ya. He was just feeling really nervous and was not up for packing so I wrote his name on everything while his mom packed it!
Tuesday was the tough day. It started out early again and we just finished up little things again. We went to forever friends for a milkshake and then he had to go tell my family bye. I didn’t realize this would be so hard for him. Once we left my house he just got in his car and bawled. I think it would be so much harder for him just because he had to leave everything here!
We headed back to his house and his mom, Jake, and me just had a little crying fest for a minute then finished packing. Then Jake gave me a blessing I will never forget and then we headed to Minico where I parked my car to say our “see ya laters”. This was by far the hardest thing I have ever done. I have never felt so sick and so down. I know what he is doing is going to bless him and all of us a million times over but it was so hard. We have dated for 2 1/2 years so when he left he just kissed my forehead and said “This is our last step Kode…stick it out with me”. We have been through so much together and through it all we have become best friends so I know that these next two years will only strengthen us. Everyone tells me the first week is the hardest and all I am saying is they better be right haha! It has kicked my butt but I hope once I get that first letter it will all be ok! I’m proud of what he is doing!
Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be.
I have a ton of pictures and posts I need to write from the past couple weeks so I will get to them soon!
3 comments:
you made me cry! I hope you're okay and you can seriously text me if you need anything! or we can go get coffee when you're in town. stay strong! <3
You know, I held my tears back pretty darn good, considering I'm a pregnant lady... Then I read your post, and all I am doing is seating on my sofa, sobbing like a baby! You both can do it! I love seeing you two together, and I know that it will only be better when he returns!! Plus, if any guy try's to put any moves on you, Jacque will come and tell them whats up. So really there is no way out of the Barclay Clan! You're kind of stuck! So we can sob, laugh, cry, eat chocolate together, while watching a girl movie, and wait for this guy to return!
It only gets better I promise in 11 months you will be just like me and wondering where the time went and getting all ready for the next year! You can do this there is no doubt in my mind! In the next two years you will both fall more in love with each other you will grow and change but you can grow and change TOGETHER! It really is the last step ha take it from the girl who has her wedding date set already! If you need anything text me call me ANYTHING I am here for you 100% of the way! Now I really have my waiting buddy!
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